“I really thought I was going to die, I thought I wasn’t coming back. Honestly, just good old fashioned depression, you know, but heightened by alcohol dependency and narcotic abuse. I mean, everybody gets depressed, it’s totally normal. At the time I didn’t realize that, I thought I was really sick and I was self-medicating and then the medicine stopped working and I really thought - I really did think I was going to die. I think it’s something that everybody goes through and that’s not to belittle the fact that some people have it worse than others and some people can’t get out of bed; I think that exists and I think it’s very serious but I notice a lot of people think they can solve their problems with anti-depressants and that I’ve noticed being a bigger issue. Like it really strips people of who they are; like, all your quirks and all your problems - even your depressions and your failures - that’s what makes you, you and there’s a lot of drugs out there that’ll take that away from you.” — Gerard Way.
I don’t think I can ever see this-and not reblog-it’s just so frikkin’… gah!
I’ve putting this one off because I really don’t have any secrets. Everyone knows everything about me cause I’m huge fucking loud mouth. But I’ll write something that I assume most of my followers won’t know about me.
So I’m finally back from Reading (well, I was back on Monday but I’ve basically been asleep until today, walking around in a zombie-like stupor!) and I feel it’s necessary to round up all that gooey-yummy festival goodness via blogpost. Mostly so I can prolong that festival feeling.
I don’t why people ask who was my favourite act at Reading-considering everyone already is extremely aware that I’m a massive MCR fan-it was obviously always going to be MCR! But honestly, their performance on Friday even beat my already staggeringly high expectations! A bunch of friends who came along (mostly so they could witness my own hilarious euphoria of dancing and singing) said it was unexpectedly good because Gerard performed so energetically that everyone was hyped up whether they dug My Chemical Romance or not . Obviously, Brian May coming on stage and playing ‘We Will Rock You’ with MCR was a highlight-and as close as any of us will ever get to seeing Queen live. But for me, it was watching Brian May play ‘The Black Parade’ I felt like it solidified MCR as relevant and awesome rock band, not some passing ‘emo’ fad. When it was all over, I walked around in a stupor, already feeling nostalgic for a moment that had literally just past! I’ve seen MCR five times now, and I can definitely say that Reading 2011 was one of their best yet-I can’t wait for their next UK tour so that they beat their own gig again!
I bougt myself a new cardigan from Primark! I really should not have since I am going to Reading tomorrow and I need every last penny for that but it was only fourteen squid AND it has a pink R on it. Seriously, it was made for a Robyn with pink hair.
Oh yeah, and check my MCR shirt! AIM FOR THE FACE!
In three days time, I’ll have witnessed MCR perform at Reading 2011. This’ll be the fifth time I’ve seen them live! Whenever I have a bad day I always think, “This time…you’ll be seeing MCR again!” and I’m kind of nervous at what I’ll do to keep myself going whenever that’s off the table! Not that’ll jump off a bridge or anything…life’s just always been easier whenever I know I’m seeing my absolute favourite band soon. People think I’m totally crazy because whenever MCR get played on radio1 or whatever, I take it is a sign-that they’re reminding me that life isn’t always so bad and that it’ll be better tomorrow. I’m aware that that’s something people would criticise for being incredibly ”emo”, but whatever man-if you can’t appreciate someone’s unashamed and life-affirming love of one band-then obviously you’ve never had that, and I pity you.
KILLJOYS MAKE SOME NOISE!
I am so exhausted today it feels like i have been hauled around all day to see acts i do not necessarily like. Okay i do like the acts i saw today but i do not love them either. Ke$ha was one of the best acts of the day. She act had confetti cannons, body glitter and dancers. It was great to watch! Crystal castles were also amazing which is unsurprising because they not only have a bonafide rock and roll idol fronting but because they easily had the most unique act of the day. Tired…i literally sacrificed my body to the spirit of electronic rock and roll today. Going to sleep super early to shorten the distance between me and my chemical romance. I know the foo fighters are tomorrow too and that, that is a super huge deal but can i just admit that i am scared of the potential eighty five thousand strong crowd for them? In closing…i look just like budy holly